I have been toying with the idea of sharing this information (because I'm embarrassed at my present weight), but decided to suck it up and share... Around this time in my life (back in Spring, 2012):
I weight a whopping 199.9lbs. Even though I never saw it on the scale, I was 200 disgusting, fatty, icky pounds. Oh my gosh how gross is that?! The sickest part of it is that I did it to myself. I certainly have hereditary obstacles set forth for me, but none of which guaranteed/forced me to weight that much. Ever. What's worse is that:
I've never had a baby.
I've never had some debilitating injury.
& I've never had some thyroid issue, crones disease, or other medical ailment.
I have; however, had a diet + exercising problem. big time.
Cue the birth of the "Lifestyle Makeover."
Back in April I began a journey to focus my energy on living a healthier lifestyle.
I still binge on junkfood, enjoy the beverages, and skip the gym, but what I don't do is combine these behaviors, nor do I allow them to occur more than once in awhile. I'm really hoping that with the end of summer, so will the end of my lax behavior on my diet/exercise regiment (haven't been able to get back in gear 100%) be, and can't wait to kick it back into action.
As of today, I've lost officially 40lbs. I fluctuate amongst a few of the high 150's/low 160's, but have seen as low as 158.4lbs. on the scale (since beginning the makeover). Someone of my height is recommended to weigh anywhere between 108-143lbs... Which is quite a vast range if you ask me!! It's all contingent upon your level of activity, build, and genetics, so (without any medical insight) I'd be comfortable with myself at a 130-140lb. range.
Realistically, 130lbs. is hard (for me) to achieve. Some girls my height would rush to grab the fastest diet cleanse if they ever saw that much weight on the scale, but for me it's the opposite. 130 is my "goal weight." Not even my goal... my "dream weight." It's highly unattainable without the assistance of a personal trainer + complete purge of any "bad" behavior, and it's not practical for me.
The thing is, you have to compare where your comfort zone is to yourself. Your 5'2" and my 5'2" carry such different meanings... So even though I pine over looking like a teeny tiny pixie, reality is it isn't gonna happen. I don't even think in my dreams would it happen since my brain isn't that unrealistic. But my 5'2" now compared to my 5'2" back in the spring - now that is one heck of a comparison.
I have really struggled (and continue to do such) with the concept of what is realistic/practical for me & my lifestyle/demands and continue to focus on what is considered "doable" for me.
I hope that with time (and especially with my July, 2013 wedding as motivation), I'll see that scale continue to creep down...
...It's not easy
...It's not quick
...But it is worth it.
Look at the girl to the left in the brown dress shopping for her wedding gown... She looks a lot happier + healthier than the one in the earlier post, and she's the same woman on the inside.
At 158ish lbs., it's safe to say that it's not over (not by a long haul), but it's a lot closer that it was to begin with... all it takes is getting up and going.
Just do it.
If I can, so can you.